The last day where i never step into the office was probably the last time i blog. That's like 12 days ago. Alrights, kinda craziness.. but a fulfilling 12 days. though i was falling asleep in the office. my room is officially a hotel..
Hmm.. 13th gym with fitria..
14th went to eat crabs with ming, kang and jean..
15th met up with my marchies and of course eat again.
16th was kinda a screwed up timing bowling training session. =.=
17th went shopping with cali and cheryl
18th i think i went home after fit fly me kite?! "suppose to bowl"
19th china one with colleagues~ and i will never drive and drink and drive ever..
20th met with fit for dessert.. she's officially my new les partner..
21st tuition tired..~
22nd tution =.=
23rd ot till 9pm.. kinda can sleep in the office already..
24th a fulfilling training session with D finally there.
25th badminton! can't wait.. i wonder if i should go ot in the morning.
i'm kinda practically working everyday nowadays.. partly is to top up the savings that i have drained for the past half year.. oh ya~ when it comes to the 3 months holiday, i will earn like mad.. "for future spending!".. you see, you can't just stop shopping.. so yes, gotta save now for future spending.. work hard~ play harder~ and bowl hardest.. alrights, i'm still not fulfilling the part where i'm suppose to bowl at least twice a week.. it's either i'm tired or fit is tired.. and cali will be lazy.. and the guys will be mia somewhere..
looking forward to the next few months.. but kinda scare for august.. i guess gonna stop working or something.. i wonder if i can cope if so many things happening at the same time.. hmm..
累，是自找的。
泪，心底留下缺口。
儡，也会装作若无其事。
她还懵然不知。
已让岁月蹉跎。
莫明，那眼眶含着泪
始终无法释怀。
不知今夕何夕。
荡然，欺骗已是潇洒
惜福眼前之物。
目空一切皆空。
What Dreams May Come
- a beautiful story about life after death, love after death -
许茹芸 - 美梦成真
我能感觉
我像只麋鹿奔驰思念的深夜
停在你心岸啜饮失眠的湖水
苦苦想你习惯不睡
为躲开寂寞的狩猎
我的感觉
像小说忽然写到结局那一页
我不愿承认缘份已肠思枯竭
逼迫自己时光倒回
要美梦永远远离心碎
我抱着你 我吻着你 我笑着流泪
我不懂回忆能如此真切
你又在我的眼眶决堤淹水
爱不是离别
可以抹灭
我除了你 我除了疯 我没有后悔
我一哭全世界为我落泪
在冷的没有你的孤绝
我闭上双眼
用泪去感觉
你的包围
解脱。
自由。
梦想。
那年的情书 - 江美琪
手上青春还剩多少
思念还有多少煎熬
偶尔清洁用过的梳子
留下了时光的线条
你的世界但愿都好
当我想起你的微笑
无意重读那年的情书
时光悠悠青春渐老
回不去的那段相知相许美好
都在发黄的信纸上闪耀
那是青春诗句记号
莫怪读了心还会跳
你是否也还记得那一段美好
也许写给你的信早扔掉
这样才好 曾少你的
你已在别处都得到
suppose to go gym with fit this morning but she got client to meet and the end result being me lazing at home. finally took the car, went ikea to get mirrors for my room (i so feel like having a wall of mirror in my room), drop by the shop, and pick up ming & kang for a last minute dinner before they are off to watch tennis match at ming's.
been keeping myself occupied with work and more work.
feeling quite lost today when it's my off day.
hmm.. i need to detox my system.. need to find something that i truly love.
where's the faith.. where's me..
working for 5 full days, 1 coaching, 2 night tuition, 1 training session.
i survived a week of work!
cultivating the habit of sleeping early and waking at 7am everyday.
ain't that difficult to manage if i pace myself well.
all about sacrificing.
it's good to be working rather than wasting time at home..
outcome = will become emo. lolz~
time to save up.. for future spending!
Recently, i'm in love with yi shu.. always love her books..
freaking waking up early
freaking working
freaking tired
freaking in good mood still
freaking rush home
freaking rush dinner
freaking rush out
freaking drive madly
freaking late for training
freaking turns out bowl game
freaking disappointment
freaking waste money
freaking waste time
freaking waste effort
freaking waste tapes
freaking anyhow bowl
freaking screwed up timing
freaking not concentrating
freaking didn't bother to focus
freaking achieve nothing but stupid old habits
freaking should have go with my gut feeling
freaking =.=
I'm having insomia at this time of the night and i freaking need to wake up at 6.45am. tired and restless. having too much thoughts in my brain, too cluttered, too clouded. probably because it's the time of the year when i start questioning myself and reflecting about the past 1 year.. needs decluttering! been thinking quite a lot lately. been reflecting about how much time i have wasted for the past years. been feeling in the state where i hasn't been living up to my own expectations or rather a living in denial situation.
It's time to make some changes. time to stop procrastinating about the decisions i should be making. somehow, questions start to resurface again. some things need to be justified.. corrected and lived through for whatever reasons. it's time to grow up and stop being so emo over things. *deletes the old blog entries for a fresh start*
This holiday will be a busy busy one.. i just realise how tight my schedule is when i start filling up my oh-so-dusty organiser. and somehow, don't know why i'm not really looking forward to training. i wonder if it's the distance (i need car..) or is it me (always this part of me where there's a why am i still bowling factor) or maybe it's the fact that i'm working like later~
Realised it's not good to be too free.. cause it just makes me question myself "what the hell..?!". I think i'm having some madness withdrawal syndrome or something. I keep having this feeling that there's something i forget to do but i still can't figure out.. alrights, i need to get some grip of myself.
Alrights, i have a good laugh this morning with wend online.. gosh~ that sat night, i was with this bunch of semi-unconcious people.. they don't remember what happened to them that night already..
Guess i'm blessed or something.. previously i was looking for tuition job and gotten one. was looking online for jobs yesterday and got a call from my last time sup to go back starhub to work! Lolz.. and i'm starting work tmr. (kinda too fast? like exams only ended last friday..) shall bring all my barang barangs to work tmr.. suddenly there's like so much things to do.. work, coaching, tuition, trainings.. okies, just as i wish, i'm really sretching my time to the max. gosh, training is at occ, i wonder how i'm going to freaking crawl there after work.